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 My first boyfriend and I bonded over theology. He and his family were part of a home-based, semi-exclusive, Christian church. We met in our last year of school, when we were 17, and he had begun questioning his restrictive upbringing. There were a lot more rules about behaviour in his church than mine. For instance, women were not allowed to wear pants or cut their hair short. The only permitted biblical translation was the King James version. Most relationships outside the church were frowned upon – even relationships with other Christians. One of the core beliefs of his congregation was that they were the only Christians who got it all right; that all other Christian churches were on the path to eternal separation from God. Needless to say, I was intrigued. He was open to talking about it and questioning what he had been taught. Our theological discussions were usually tilted towards my interpretations of scripture.   After all, I was the one who had been taught to look ...

I’ve been putting off this blog entry for a while because this topic opens up a philosophical can of worms. To avoid drowning in philosophy, I’ve decided to make the bulk of this post a series of questions. These questions get to the heart of why I believe Christianity is incompatible with life as a human. On choices in general… What causes us to make choices? Is it pure ‘rationality’, or are there other factors? How important are those other factors? If we always have full power over our choices, why does marketing work? Why do people choose to do things that hurt themselves? Why did I choose to snooze my alarm today? I wanted to get up early. Is being tired a good excuse? Does it justify the choice? Did I make that choice or was it my body? Am I my brain? Is the one who makes choices separate from my body altogether? What if we extend this reasoning to other, more consequential, choices?   Photo by me. In the Bible, ‘sinning’ is when one disobeys God’s comma...

First, a Bible excerpt - John 20:24-29 New International Version (NIV). Jesus Appears to Thomas 24  Now Thomas (also known as Didymus), one of the Twelve, was not with the disciples when Jesus came.  25  So the other disciples told him, “We have seen the Lord!” But he said to them, “Unless I see the nail marks in his hands and put my finger where the nails were, and put my hand into his side, I will not believe.” 26  A week later his disciples were in the house again, and Thomas was with them. Though the doors were locked, Jesus came and stood among them and said, “Peace be with you!”  27  Then he said to Thomas, “Put your finger here; see my hands. Reach out your hand and put it into my side. Stop doubting and believe.” 28  Thomas said to him, “My Lord and my God!” 29  Then Jesus told him, “Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.” ...

If someone were to ask me whether science and religion can coexist, my answer would be: ‘it does.’ Religion has always explored the realm of life in which we don’t know the answers – the things that touch us in ways that we find it hard to describe scientifically. I’m talking about creativity, compassion, paternal love, intimacy, evil. I could list more. There’s something extremely human about religion. We’re constantly overwhelmed by our emotions and it’s not easy for us to think rationally. After all, our intelligence is limited. Science, on the other hand, is not a religion. It’s a nice process for us humans to get to the bottom of things about the universe. As discussed in my post about the scientific method, science can only approach ideas that can be falsified. God’s existence is not, and never will be, one of these ideas. So, by definition, religion always lies outside the scope of science. However, this doesn’t mean that they never cross paths. A famous example is...

I have always been interested in science. I loved learning about how the world could be experimented on and, most of all, understood. It was only in my first year of university, studying a Bachelor of Science, that the philosophy of science was properly presented to me. Here, two major concepts I learnt laid the foundation for my change in worldview. Speaking of views. Photo by me. The first was the idea of e mpiricism . Scientific knowledge is gained through human experience. While doing experiments in my physics courses, I learnt that everything that is measured has uncertainty. A good example of this is simply measuring the length of a pencil with a ruler. You can use the ruler and read off a number, but the number you read depends on many things. Even if you do your best to read the number carefully, your measurement still relies on the precision of your ruler. The smallest markings my ruler has are millimetres. This means that, using my ruler, I can never know whether the p...

I will never truly lose my religion - my God left an indelible mark on my brain. He exists in my life as a memory of a person who knew everything about me. He was a friend who I could trust with my deepest confessions. He would, at least, keep them a secret. But, he most certainly disapproved of many of my actions. Like many break-ups, it was a messy one. My Fall (so I call it) began almost 10 years ago, but I am still working through it all. Photo by me. Before the Fall, I’m standing in a crowded place. Although 30,000 people surround me, I could be alone. I’m lost - lost in the music, in the lights, in the lyrics: “All my delight is in you, Lord. All of my hope, All of my strength. All my delight is in you, Lord. Forever more.” It’s the truth. I’m bathing in it; tears streaming down my face, hands both raised. In the words of my cousin, I’m “weird”. But I don’t care. I’ve never felt such intense gratefulness, acceptance, longing, hopefulness. I probably never w...